Feeling Sad and Alone
Recently, I’ve been having this pain in my heart - like when you fall and skin your knee, and it aches and feels bloody and exposed? As humans, we ALL know this feeling: the ache of a bruise and a fresh cut before it scabs over. You KNOW you’re going to be okay, but it hurts and it’s okay to honor the hurt as your body works to heal it.
My hurt is not physical, it’s at a soul level. Soul-hurts happen to all of us too, but we are conditioned from a young age to ignore them. This means when our bodies tell us that we have a soul-injury, we think it’s a physical problem and we reach for a physical remedy. I can’t tell you how many ibuprofen I’ve ingested over the course of my adult life. I also cannot recall how many times the ibuprofen didn’t fix my problem. The amazing thing, for me, was finding Reiki, and realizing that many of my “physical” ailments could be alleviated with reiki energy.
What about this pain in my heart? Why can’t I just reiki that away? Well- it’s GRIEF. Grief is something we each have to go through in many different ways. We experience loss - loss of a loved one, loss of a pet, loss of dream, or even the loss of the way things “used to be”. It hurts and we feel alone.
In the last couple months, I have experienced loss, and in this, I know I’m not alone. I’m quite sure, if you are reading this, you have too. And, if you haven’t experienced loss and grief lately, it is part of life and will greet you sooner or later. Hopefully these words will help you when it happens.
The good news is: WE ARE NOT ALONE. Our angels and guides are by our side 24/7, doing their best to let us know they are there. Those moments when we feel a little reprieve, or maybe a song starts playing that shifts our consciousness and mood…those are our Spirit Team letting us know we are loved and supported! We miss so many signs, especially when we are in the midst of big feelings, but it doesn’t mean they aren’t trying to reach us. If you are feeling alone, ask them for a specific sign and keep your eyes and ears open for a few days for that sign to show up. They want to let us know they’re around.
As for me, I know they’re around. I experience many signs daily. I’ve cleared my energy of other people’s energy (An empath trait is taking on other’s feelings and it’s important to clear that energy from your own field. If you’re not sure how, just ask your angels to clear anything that’s not yours from your energy field.), so I know my feelings are my own. What I’m learning to do now is different than in times past. I’m learning to FEEL my feelings: the skinned heart space, and the tightness in my gut are uncomfortable, but they will not last. In fact, I KNOW that I can release them at any time. I am quite sure that as soon as I publish this blog, I won’t have a need for them to stick around anymore.
You see, besides the passing of my uncle who was very dear to me, I’ve lost some relationships that haven’t evolved with me. It’s nothing personal. There have been no fights or arguments - just a realization that “the toothpaste is out of the tube, and it’s not going back in”. We are not the people we used to be and our thoughts and values don’t align. There’s no judgment. Whether these people are family, friends, co-workers, or neighbors, it hurts and feels alone, but you are NOT alone. I am NOT alone. It’s not personal. We are each on our own journey and we cannot bring everyone with us.
If you like, try this invocation: “Angels, thank you for showing me a sign that you are near. Seeing ______, or hearing _______, is personal to me and I will believe it’s you showing me your support. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. And so it is.”
If you are ready for some physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual healing through a reiki session, or through learning reiki, I would love to help you.
Peace and Blessings,
Margaret Rose
651.442.3732
www.peacefulsoulutions.net
p.s. And, as I thought, I woke up this morning, knowing this would be this week’s topic, and writing it would probably help me. As I sit down to publish this evening, the pain and tightness in my heart and stomach are gone. I keep getting the message that “pain is a choice”…now it’s about learning how to let the pain go. Slowly I learn…
