Feeling Alone
I guess when I asked for angelic help writing weekly blogs I didn’t count on learning painful lessons so much as channeling a loving a humorous muse along the way. This one stings. And by stings I mean my heart hurts and my stomach is in knots and I just want to cry.
My parents modeled a social lifestyle for me. They were constantly involved in our community in many different ways. They were both “transplants” and expanded their circle among neighbors, work, church, and by way of having 8 children - our friends and teammates and their parents and families. As you can imagine, the circle of people I grew to love and trust extended far beyond my parents, siblings, and personal friends.
When I moved away from “home” and the state of Washington, I learned to reach out to the people around me, become involved in my community, and also reach back to those I loved. Since I was a teen with a rotary phone, and “reach out and touch someone” was a sweet slogan used by AT&T meant to shorten the distance between loved ones with a phone call, not innuendo or even a gross thought, I spent hours chatting with my friends. That and old fashioned letters morphed into emails and texts - but the number of texts and even phone calls I get daily is gigantic!
All this to say - I don’t feel “alone” very often.
Or maybe “alone” isn’t the right word? Tonight I feel “different” and perhaps a bit ostracized. I have been made aware that if I were quieter, if I were less enthusiastic, if I were less…me, people would feel more comfortable talking to me.
I’m pretty sure if you’re reading this, you are not one of those people, so please don’t feel this is a plea to help make me feel better. I will feel better -probably even by the time this is published! Because other than to illustrate for you what to do when you’re feeling alone and rejected, how I feel has nothing to do with why I’m writing this. It’s merely here for me to get a weekly angel message across.
The first thing the Angels want you to know is: It’s okay to feel your feelings! I have been fully feeling this. Like I said, my heart hurts, my stomach is in knots, and tears have been falling out of my eyes. The tears are a release and that’s good. The more that I cry, the less that my heart hurts and the more my stomach relaxes. One of the things that helped me cry was journaling. I was able to write down what happened and how it made me feel and as I got to “how it made me feel”, the tears started to flow.
The second thing Angels want you to know is: It’s okay to ask for help. Depending on how alone you are feeling, and the stories flowing through your mind, you may need more than one kind of help. While journaling, I asked my angels for help. The Angels want you to know that they appreciate it when you remember to ask them for help with feeling hard feelings. They reminded me to make a list of people who understand and accept this “new me” and I noticed that my list had a lot of new friends on there who love and appreciate Spiritual Margaret. In full disclosure though, I had some deep dark, fatalistic, self-shaming and self-blaming thoughts enter my mind. In thanks to angelic help and a couple years of meditation and mindfulness, I was able to acknowledge those thoughts and send them packing. I have learned that “the mind” is not a problem solver but a creator of problem -spirals, so I have learned to have a thought, acknowledge it, and let it go….but that hasn’t always been the truth. If you need help learning to do that, a therapist likely has at least one tool to help you rewrite the stories that fill your head.
The third thing Angels want you to know is: Be authentically you. It’s tempting when we get rejected to want to change part of us to make others more comfortable with who we are - REALLY TEMPTING. Other people’s reaction to your authentic self is never a reason or excuse to change. We are each on earth to learn certain lessons and to fulfill our life’s purpose for this lifetime. Heck! I know this last sentence has a lot of people thinking “I don’t resonate with that statement”. That’s okay. My beliefs and your beliefs don’t have to match. That’s part of what makes life so sweet. I assume if you’re still reading this you do believe in angels? And, if you’re not sure and you can believe that I believe in them because I’ve seen them and heard them and had miracles happen that I’ve thanked them for, that’s good enough for me. Walking the steps of my life’s purpose depends on me being true to my beliefs. This is what brings me peace and happiness, and even joy in the midst of sadness. I will put it a different way. Walking the steps of YOUR life’s purpose depends on YOU being true to YOUR BELIEFS. That said, sometimes this means that we lose the relationships with people we thought we were closest to.
It’s sad when relationships end - any kind of relationships. It doesn’t matter if they were the best relationship on earth or a co-dependent, destructive relationship, or one of the many, many in between. They always began for a reason. In fact, one of my favorite quotes about relationships is that they are for “a reason, a season, or a lifetime”. Endings hurt, but endings bring beginnings every darn time!
Archangel Azrael is the Archangel of Death and Transitions. Azrael helps us when we pass from this world to the next. Azrael helps people whose loved ones are passing. Azrael helps when we graduate, or lose a job, or get a job, or get out of a toxic situation. Azrael is one of those angels we can ask for help when we are going through a painful transition. You absolutely do not need to remember Azrael’s name (but if you were a Smurf fan, it was the name of Gargamoyle’s cat), because whether it’s your Guardian Angels, Helper Angels, or Azrael, or even God/Universe/Source…all you need to do is ask for help with a grateful heart and your prayers (if you’re okay calling it that) will be answered. You’ll feel a little more peace.
Now, I’m going to go do some self-reiki to clear out my chakras and any lingering feelings of rejection and abandonment. It’s one of the cool things that my new life and new skills have opened up for me. If you are interested in receiving a reiki healing session with me or learning reiki to use on yourself when “the feels” get to be BIG, please text me or call me to set up a session. My Authentic self is here to share what has worked for me to bring more peace to my life so others can have more peace in their life.
If you know someone you think would appreciate a reiki session or learning about reiki or angels, or even just needs to hear this message, please don’t hesitate to share. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for reading this message.
Peace and Blessings,
Margaret Rose
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