My Peaceful Soulution
The pandemic meant a lot of changes around the world. My life was no different.
I started asking a lot of questions. Nothing quite fit anymore. My job of the last 13 years had become increasingly less comfortable. Fifty years of worshipping the same way was not aligning with my personal beliefs. I had always been an outgoing “people person” and was beginning to feel a great desire to retreat. Who was I? What did I believe? How did I want to live? What was my purpose?
I took online classes. I journaled. I read books. I listened to podcasts. I listened to books. I dug deep within. And, thanks to a divinely-timed paper my daughter had me edit for her college class, and a Celebration of Life for a family member (that was postponed until get-togethers outside) were starting to happen again, I met and talked with a couple psychic mediums.
Through these mediums, my soul was eased and I realized that many of the intuitive thoughts and ideas I had experienced throughout my life were valid and worth listening to. It was time for me to start along a new path. My soul (just like yours) was here on earth for a reason and as long as I continued along the path of least resistance for others, I would feel dissonance within myself. Let me rephrase that for emphasis- As long as I was trying to be “good” and be the person others wanted me to be, there would be something within me that felt frustrated. In order to ease my soul, I needed to listen to those little urges saying, “maybe you should…” and follow them up with action.
My actions turned into routines. I started remembering and writing down my dreams each morning. It’s morphed a bit, so that sometimes it’s not a dream I remember, but lyrics to a song playing on repeat when I wake up, or a single vision, like a postage-stamp-image that floats along my line of sight. Everything is worth noting.
I also started meditating. At first, it was whenever I could sneak a few minutes for myself. Wisdom says it’s best if you can do it at the same time everyday. I’m still not quite that rigid about time, but I do meditate every morning, and often before I fall asleep at night. Sometimes it’s a 3 minute meditation, if that’s all “life” will allow. Sometimes I get a half hour or even longer! When I got my first Reiki attunement, my 21 day assignment was to meditate and do self-reiki everyday. I haven’t missed a day. It’s now as natural as brushing my teeth. It’s just something I do.
The person I am today is very different than who I was a few years ago, and yet I feel more myself than I have since childhood when I started molding “me” to fit other people’s expectations (or my perception of their expectations). I’m no longer concerned with whether other people think I’m a “good” whatever (wife, mother, daughter, friend, employee, Catholic, citizen…) and am living authentically ME. I am calmer. I am less judgmental. I’m kinder and slower to anger. I’m grateful everyday for all the blessings in my life.
I’ve done a lot of Spiritual Work to get here - a lot of journaling, a lot of meditating, and a lot of reiki. It’s been so worth it. If it sounds like a peaceful soulution for you, please reach out. I would love to help.
